The last time i posted was of a rant. Sorry it's another one. But I kinda just need to say it.
So recently my car has been in pretty bad shape and when i went to get my steering checked they mention a big tuneup I would have to get. They couldn't fit a problem because when they pulled out one thing then that thing and another thing needs to be replace. It cost money. All they could do it stop the leaking for now.
I am a paranoid person and when telling this to my dad he mentions it's probably time to move on from my car and get a new one. To get money I would have to extend my hours at work or get another job. I have trouble spending and I know this is a problem. But I had come to the decision it would be to take a semester off.
I thought I would have to pay rent, and it turns out I dont which is actually a good thing. So all I would have to do it work 40 hours and pay my phone bill and the usually things. My dad was actually very understanding which for some reason i wasn't expecting? I don't know. I dont feel safe driving my car to and from Detroit, so I thought it would be best to stay home and drive as minimum as possible as I don't go anywhere really.
A break is what I wanted and i don't take classes during the summer so i would have till next fall to get a car. Maybe that will change and I'll have one class over the summer I don't know. I guess I'm just...afraid? What if I fail and just wasted months trying to save when I just screwed everything up. As much as I hate my job at McDonalds, they'll give me hours. I know they will.
I dont really know why I'm ranting. Maybe I can get another job that I wouldn't mind working at for 8 hours. I dont know. With the time off I'll be able to probably take on some projects work on my art skills. Part of me wants this to be good for me, and other half is jsut afraid that I'm just going to screw it up. It's easier said to put up a plan than to go through with it. I always had problems with it. Perhaps I can make a difference this time.
I don't know.
I thought about taking commissions. I dont know just yet.